Open, closed, all flowers, open or closed, all flowersAll are flowers whether open or closedJudgement does not fall upon the flowers from the flowersDiscernment flows through their stems with compassionNo …
Acknowledging that some of your needs simply aren’t going to be met during this time is an important step, though it is painful and requires a lot of emotional processing. Some of these needs can be met partially or in other ways, but this is not always possible. Accept and validate your grief, and treat yourself gently.
As I type this, they are cutting our Jungle down. Earlier I was pacing, my heart racing, and worrying the dogs. I had to shut the curtains so Java wouldn’t make himself sick barking. Maybe writing about the trees is a better way to witness what is happening. The words “sweet release” keep running through my head. It is going to be heart wrenching when I open the curtains and Jungle is not there.
Spoons are extra valuable right now, because if you’re like me, everything that I need to do seems to cost more energy than it did when this year started. I am happy if I can get through a day with all of the basics done for the household, and I changed out of my pajamas.